Sunday, April 1, 2018

Dress shopping

Nordstrom black cap sleeve dress, comes in blush pink too! is absolutely gorgeous

Maggy London Lace Detail Crepe Sheath Dress $148.00

The Megan from Latter Day Bride. $285.00

I just want to wear this to a Christmas/New Year's party or dinner.

Me and my friend are doing a sugar fast - no refined sugar at all. I don't know for how long yet. Maybe just a week or two I think it will be really hard. I'm addicted to sugar!! But that's why I need to do this and wean myself off of it. As a reward for doing it I think i'll buy myself a new dress or these Made in Spain shoes that I really wanted to buy while I was on my mission because they're everywhere and they're so cute, but I never did buy them!!

Avarcas Classic Black. 

or these because they say Barcelona on them lol

Places I want to go

To see the northern lights in Finland (or somewhere up there in the Northern hemisphere, Canada maybe?)

Mexicooooooooooooooo!! Mi gente!!!!!

China for the sole reason of touring the Buddhist temples and shrines and gardens

Japan for the same reason and cherry blossoms

or D.C. for cherry blossoms

NYC Times Square, Rockefeller Center during Christmas. Central Park in the summer

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Don't Be So Hard On Yourself

I just found a blog I started in 2010! I only posted on it like twice- but I found this gem that I forgot existed!!

Dang those braces years were the WORST. But I remember seeing this picture and thinking my face was so FAT but now I wish my face was that shape!! 

Dear 2010 Kayla, You have a bangin body sister. Too bad you don't know that. Too bad you're about to go off the deep end with your restricting and your exercising. I want you to know that you're beautiful right now. I wish you knew that you are only going to get fatter and that your acne is only going to get worse. Don't be so hard on yourself. 

Like look at my skinny little arms and my face! AUGH! I do remember seeing these pictures shortly after they were taken and looking at myself and HATING it! Like what is wrong with me?! I think I have body dysmorphia or whatever.  That always happens to me! And I am so hard on myself. Looking at that picture really makes me want to lose weight because I am the biggest I've ever been right now. I'm not even "big" per se but I'm like 142 and 5'8.25" and I used to be 125. 

Wednesday, July 19, 2017