Saturday, May 19, 2018

Soooo about Rexburg

Soooo here's the thing. I really really didn't want to go back to Rexburg. Like, honestly, I didn't have a great experience when I was there. I was super depressed, I hated my classes, it was really cold, it was really hard to make friends, I only went on two dates, I didn't have a car so I was literally stuck in Rexburg with nothing to do most of the time since I didn't make any friends that had cars. And I generally just didn't enjoy it.

Buttttt, here's the thing. I've been considering going back even though I've been hating on it ever since I left, because THEY HAVE MY MAJOR. I want to do Spanish Education and they have it! BYU Provo also has it but they only accept 50 students into the program per semester or something and I worry that it will be super competitive and I will just be so stressed out and I hate that uncertainty about getting accepted or not. Soooooo, BYU Idaho is looking pretty good right now. BUT I still hate Rexburg. There's NOTHING there. Just a Walmart, the campus and the temple. It's not fun. But my mom was like, you're going there to get an education, that's what matters. Well, yeah. But I'd like to enjoy my time there.

Thinking back about everything though. I was really young when I went there. And I was only there for 1 semester. That was back in September 2013, so it's been like 5 years now. Geez that's crazy. So I mean, I'm sure that my shyness that I used to have was a big reason why I absolutely hated it. I've had a lot more life experiences now. I went on a mission, worked at Disney, worked sales and customer service for insurance. And I feel a lot more confident in myself and feel like I'll have a better time. Also now that I'm almost 100% positive that I want to go into Spanish Education it makes me that much more excited and happy to be at school since I see the end goal in sight. That was not the case when I was there in 2013.

Plus I'm about to graduate with my AA so I'll only have to be in Rexburg for 2 years hopefully!

I don't know though. It's tempting to just stay in Florida. In the warmth. With my family. It's definitely more of a growing experience to go out west though, I think. Plus IRSC doesn't have Spanish education, I would have to do regular education.

Too tired to write anything but this was fun :)

Saturday, May 12, 2018

1 Week No Makeup!!

Yes I’m doing it! So far it’s been 5 days! I started on Monday and it’s now Friday night. I never leave the house without makeup. Ever. But my friend doesn’t wear makeup and we went to Disney together the other day and here I came wearing full coverage concealer, foundation, powder, blush, bronzer, eyeshadow, mascara, lip stick, the whole nine yards. And it was a hot Florida day and to say the least I felt pretty gross under all that makeup in the hot sun all day. And I was thinking, who am I trying to impress? Would I still feel good about myself without makeup?

I realized that I wanted to try to go makeup free for a few days. The first day was pretty easy, I only had to go to work and nobody said anything. Wednesday, my third day was my first day of Summer term classes, which was fine because being with strangers makeup free doesn’t bother me too much. But I saw one of my friends at work and she said I looked red. Haha I told her this was my natural skin and we laughed it off, no hard feelings.

Now, I absolutely love makeup. It makes me feel amazing and confident and it’s so fun buying new lipsticks and trying new brands and formulas of feoundation and concealer. And it’s been such a blessing to me as I’ve been navigating my acne prone skin for the last 9 years. But it feels so freeing to show my true skin. It’s interesting because I have definitely ran out of time in the morning before and not worn makeup. And I always let it ruin my day and how I feel about myself. I decided this week that I wouldn’t do that. This was all about empowerment.

The fourth day I was really temped to wear makeup but I decided to keep going and try to do a week. And I felt great. I feel free. And I don’t feel ashamed of my skin. Yes it’s red. Yes I have blemishes. Yes I have big pores and it gets a little oily throughout the day. But this is my skin. I’m so glad I’ve learned to love it and accept it for what it is.

Now tomorrow is Saturday and it will be super tempting to wear makeup tomorrow as we are heading to Orlando for a ward temple trip. Also this Sunday is mother’s day and it will be tempting to wear makeup because I conduct the primary children as they sing and no one at church has ever seen me without makeup.

This is my full face kid makeup. All the other pictures on this post are completely makeup free except for either a lipstick or chapstick and also face moisturizer and spf.

I have found myself taking better care of my skin since I wasn’t going to be hiding it under foundation and concealer so I did more mud masks and scar treatment this week.