Wednesday, March 20, 2019

Daytona Beach for Spring Break

I just got back today from my Spring Break. I got to go to work with my mom. I played tennis with my Nathan. We binge watched a whole season of Survivor. The second Fans vs. Favorites one and it was amazing. We went to church on Sunday for Ward Conference.

Then we drove to Daytona Beach where we stayed on the ocean. The only problem was that it was freezing cold and windy all three days we were there.  Freezing for Florida, at least. It was in the 60s. The tide was too high, except for one day where we braved the freezing wind to walk the beach. It was really funny because what we really wanted was a sunny vacation and long days in the ocean water on the beautiful Daytona Beach. But instead, we went to the Arts And Science museum, went on walks to souvenir shops, watched Captain Marvel, went on a drive to find the Daytona Speedway and ate donuts. And the boys braved the hot tub in the cold wind and rain. While my mom and I watched Michael Kay and Tim Tracker on YouTube.

It was a fun vacation even though it wasn't sunny and we didn't get to swim in the ocean or get tan. I guess we'll have to save that for a future trip.

Our last day, today, we checked out of our hotel and ate at The Cracked Egg, a nice breakfast diner. I had huge pancakes, bacon, eggs, and home fries. Then we drove to a chocolate factory. Stopped at a vintage clothing store, which surprisingly, my brothers thought was cool, almost as much as I did.

Then I drove back to Orlando while they headed south to Port St Lucie. I was crying a bit as I was driving back. I always get sad when I leave them. I worry about what will happen to them on the drive and I think about how much I love my mom especially. I was listening to a song that reminds me of her because it used to be her ringtone "You're the meaning in my life, you're the inspiration". And I was bawling. But maybe it was PMS because that happened this week too during our vacation. I was quite moody for the first day and my brothers were just getting on my every nerve. So that was fun. I never used to think PMSing was real, but it totally is.

Sunday, January 27, 2019

The 407

UCF has been pretty interesting to say the least. My car broke down in the middle of the highway, I had to call 911 on some people that got into a fight at 3 am in front of my apartment, my professor that I have for two classes has been canceling all classes because she's sick and my roommate smokes marijuana in the living room. 

So yeah. It's been interesting. 

I had a really good day at church today though, in the singles ward. I felt the Spirit really strong during the meeting. The speakers were really good and relief society was really good too. Why is it that some Sundays are better than others? Like sometimes I go to church and I don't get anything out of the talks or lessons at all but other days are just fantastic. You know what I mean?

This week is supposed to be finally a normal class schedule for me because they finally found a replacement for my sick teacher. So things should finally get going in my classes. Right now literally nothing is happening. 

I have 3 roommates. One of them is never here because she lives at her boyfriend's house. And the other two are ok. My first night here one of my roommates was smoking marijuana in the living room as soon as my family left and I was feeling a little depressed about being here all alone and then the smoking just triggered me. I walked out there and told her the smell bothered me so her and her friend took it to the back patio. They've done it a few other times since then. But they know it bothers me so they have been taking it outside.

I'm just really glad for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Sunday becomes my favorite day of the week when I'm separated from my family like this and don't have a lot of friends here. I feel close to God and my Savior at church and it inspires me to be a better person and be happier and have a better week. 

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

lifeeee got me likeeeee

Life is kind of hard. I think everyone can agree. But lately things have just felt harder for me. I find myself being truly overwhelmed by what I have to do on a day to day basis and feeling anxious and scared for what is coming next.

For example. I have a new job as a substitute teacher. I like that I get to pick the night before what school, grade and job I want to take. But being in a new environment every day and never knowing what to expect is extremely stressful and draining. 

Also, I did not get into BYU and so instead I'm staying here in Florida and going to UCF. And I'm devastated. I wanted to go to BYU so bad. 

I'm also picking a major which requires graduate school. And even though I'm pretty excited about the major, graduate school scares me to death. Getting into grad school in the first place scares me to death. 

My knowledge of Speech-Language Pathology is limited to what my mom knows from her friends that do it. But apparently it's a great career and in high demand, so we're going for it. Since I don't know what else I really want to do at this point in my life. I'm going to shadow someone next week and see how it goes, too. 

I just really hope that I can have a good experience at UCF. And that I'll be able to make friends. 

I'm not going to UCF until January so in the meantime, I'm trying to work as much as possible. I'm going to start a second job. I have interviews at Target and Publix this week. 

Thursday, June 28, 2018


I quit my job today. And it was littttttt. Just kidding it was literally the worst. I wasn't sure if I was going to stay and actually work for a few hours or if I was just going to leave. I decided pretty quickly that I wouldn't be able to effectively work knowing that it was my last day. I walked into the call floor and found a manager. She walked me out to the front of the building, took my badge and that was it. I didn't even get to say goodbye to anyone. That place is like a freaking prison. They don't let you talk to anyone even to say goodbye. Uggghhhh I'm just so glad I'm out of there. I've been working there since the end of last summer. Boiiiiii I can't believe I lasted that long working there. It is the absolute worst. SO DONE.

Now I can focus on my two summer classes that just started, my BYU application, my Primary Program for my kiddos at church, exercising and volunteering. Hahaha like I couldn't do all those things before. But really, working there just completely drained me and sucked all the life out of me.

And I have a new job starting in August to be a substitute teacher. YAH YEEET.