Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Don't Be So Hard On Yourself

I just found a blog I started in 2010! I only posted on it like twice- but I found this gem that I forgot existed!!

Dang those braces years were the WORST. But I remember seeing this picture and thinking my face was so FAT but now I wish my face was that shape!! 

Dear 2010 Kayla, You have a bangin body sister. Too bad you don't know that. Too bad you're about to go off the deep end with your restricting and your exercising. I want you to know that you're beautiful right now. I wish you knew that you are only going to get fatter and that your acne is only going to get worse. Don't be so hard on yourself. 

Like look at my skinny little arms and my face! AUGH! I do remember seeing these pictures shortly after they were taken and looking at myself and HATING it! Like what is wrong with me?! I think I have body dysmorphia or whatever.  That always happens to me! And I am so hard on myself. Looking at that picture really makes me want to lose weight because I am the biggest I've ever been right now. I'm not even "big" per se but I'm like 142 and 5'8.25" and I used to be 125.